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This is where paradox, allegories, dreams, rock music, cat naps, and other tangential things unite.
feel free to take a look around...
= Who Am I? =
i am a living paradox... an irony in disguise. a contradiction who hides behind a permanent mask..destiny is there so that we can change it by the choices that we make and the chances we take. we live to alter our so-called fate by trying to untie the knots that life has created. i am trying to make sense of my so-called existence in this dreary world and doing my best to live with humanity. my life is a vicious cycle as much as i'd hate to admit it. that is why i try to defy reality to change some things about life. i am a cynic, a dreamer, a realist and a pessimist all in one. how do i deal with it? i myself do not know the answer. i am contemplating now more than ever. thinking of what is to become of me. and what the future holds..
interests: music---> mostly rock but i can go from classical to metal.. from punk to emo... from techno/electronica/trance to indie rock..from j-rock/pop to latino music.. also some selective maintstream. NO NOVELTY SONGS PLEASE. ~my two favorite genres are rock and classical~ reading, contemplating, writing.... annoying the hell out of people by teasing them ... conversing with people .... taking long walks alone and observing people, having misadventures, playing the piano(i used to)....
AND sleeping more than 10 hours a day (i'm still a kitty you know) :P
its hard when bittersweet nostalgia creeps behind you like a prowler with one sole intention: which is to rob you of your complacency and make you remeber all those things that time has already painstakingly left behind. a flood of thoughts suddenly come bursting in your mind.. missed opportunities, overlooked chances, neglected feelings/emotions and my most lamented sentiment,
REGRET.i know that i can never bring back that moment. even if i can turn back the cogswheel of time, i still would've made the same decision. i suppose that it really bugs me that so many chances pass me by, just waiting for me to recognize and grab it. the so-called existentialist in me is clouded by my lapse of judgement. it is a choice that i made, and a chance that i did not take. and that's that.
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on a lighter note,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ANN!!!!! though you may never get to read this i just want to thank you for everything. ever since the first day it has been the five of us. i really treasure our friendship. although we have known each other just for a couple of months, we survived the first term together, rising above all those issues and ehem, rumors. and it still amazes me that even if we are so different, we all still get along. pano ba yan legal ka? naku baka mamaya kung ano ano na ang gawin mo. remember i'm just always here for you guys in case you need a helping hand or a friend for that matter.
Kitty KatKat posted @ 6:41 PM
