- - - Make Yourself at Home - - -
This is where paradox, allegories, dreams, rock music, cat naps, and other tangential things unite.
feel free to take a look around...
= Who Am I? =
i am a living paradox... an irony in disguise. a contradiction who hides behind a permanent mask..destiny is there so that we can change it by the choices that we make and the chances we take. we live to alter our so-called fate by trying to untie the knots that life has created. i am trying to make sense of my so-called existence in this dreary world and doing my best to live with humanity. my life is a vicious cycle as much as i'd hate to admit it. that is why i try to defy reality to change some things about life. i am a cynic, a dreamer, a realist and a pessimist all in one. how do i deal with it? i myself do not know the answer. i am contemplating now more than ever. thinking of what is to become of me. and what the future holds..
interests: music---> mostly rock but i can go from classical to metal.. from punk to emo... from techno/electronica/trance to indie rock..from j-rock/pop to latino music.. also some selective maintstream. NO NOVELTY SONGS PLEASE. ~my two favorite genres are rock and classical~ reading, contemplating, writing.... annoying the hell out of people by teasing them ... conversing with people .... taking long walks alone and observing people, having misadventures, playing the piano(i used to)....
AND sleeping more than 10 hours a day (i'm still a kitty you know) :P
i almost cried yesterday. its weird. i don't even know the reason why. i guess things were just bottled up too long. it was a good thing that i was able to stop it.. let's just say now is not the time for me to falter and lose myself. i'm not depressed or anything. i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm using every ounce of my strength not to be this way. its just that so many things have been happening. things changing. people neglecting. memories fading. i dunno.
to add to that, i was not my usual self a while ago. i almost tripped several times. i was spacing out. my mind was wandering elsewhere. the kaspil test was not what i expected and i'm expecting a low grade. i have two x's for the intstud recits and i don't even know where they came from since she said that she won't be checking the attendance anymore. my two artapre papers got a 2.5 each. i don't know what's happening. and yes, this is the grade conscious/superficial side of me babbling here. it's like i'm slipping and falling. i no longer have the energy. i mean what's the point?
nawawalan na ako ng gana sa halos lahat ng bagay.
Kitty KatKat posted @ 6:30 AM
