- - - Make Yourself at Home - - -
This is where paradox, allegories, dreams, rock music, cat naps, and other tangential things unite.
feel free to take a look around...
= Who Am I? =
i am a living paradox... an irony in disguise. a contradiction who hides behind a permanent mask..destiny is there so that we can change it by the choices that we make and the chances we take. we live to alter our so-called fate by trying to untie the knots that life has created. i am trying to make sense of my so-called existence in this dreary world and doing my best to live with humanity. my life is a vicious cycle as much as i'd hate to admit it. that is why i try to defy reality to change some things about life. i am a cynic, a dreamer, a realist and a pessimist all in one. how do i deal with it? i myself do not know the answer. i am contemplating now more than ever. thinking of what is to become of me. and what the future holds..
interests: music---> mostly rock but i can go from classical to metal.. from punk to emo... from techno/electronica/trance to indie rock..from j-rock/pop to latino music.. also some selective maintstream. NO NOVELTY SONGS PLEASE. ~my two favorite genres are rock and classical~ reading, contemplating, writing.... annoying the hell out of people by teasing them ... conversing with people .... taking long walks alone and observing people, having misadventures, playing the piano(i used to)....
AND sleeping more than 10 hours a day (i'm still a kitty you know) :P
these are the things that happened for the past few days(not that anyone cares anyway).. haha
i crammed ng englone portfolio. and every minute was well spent. mr. chanco gave me a huge credit for it. atleast my effort didn't come to a waste. :D
then on that same day, my friend texted me para sabihin na may overnight kami. it was a bit of a surprise because i haven't been to her place in ages. luckily, i got to go. i miss having these overnights. when we were in high school we had numerous overnights because we had to do/finish/cram our projects. these projects ranged from music videos, documentaries, shadow plays and other creative presentations. we would stay up all night or until the break of dawn. we would try to talk to each other while working. we had funny moments too.. may isang time na we were busy preparing ourselves for a video. some of them were fixing the costumes, writing the script, memorizing lines and watching a movie.. i remember that i was lying down. i was already tired that time so i was really groggy. and then my head starting to spin because my friend was fidgeting. so i told her to stop moving. then she said that she was also lying down.. turns out there was this earthquake. none of us reacted for a while. after a few moments, we all wondered why was it taking so long. after that, we were already awake.. i guess the earthquake shook us all up. tapos meron pa isang time na we slept overnight to edit the script for merchant of venice. so we delegated the work and we finished it really early. eh ang lakas ng trip ng mga kasama ko kaya we ended up making a video of oursleves! tipong i think rina or minay was playing the piano and we made an impromtu storyline and we just acted. it was a good thing that serna still haven't shown that video to anyone.. or else kahihiyan yun. haha another fond memory would be the time where we forced oursleves to sleep before 3am because we were all dead scared of bloody mary. it was funny though. i know i have a knack for annoying people and that was one of those days where i was at my peak. i think i also told them that bloody mary showed herself or her reflection on the windows. turns out, there was a huge window where we were already facing during that time. then when they checked the time it was about 230am. so they were all screaming and tried to "sleep". nakakamiss lang talaga. high school really is different and i can't help but miss those days. miss ko na ang 3S/4S.
the next day(grabe ang incoherent ko na), nagsimbang gabi kami. ayus noh? can you believe ako nagsimbang gabi>? haha i don't know the real reason kung bakit ako nagsisimba na ulit.. oh well this is a matter of self-searching or something like that. tapos nanuod kami ng 2 episodes ng weiss kreuz or knight hunters. whoo namiss ko yun sobra.. and inggit mode ako nun kasi she has the whole collection of knight hunters.. darnit.. magkakaroon din siguro ako... kung kelan yun, hindi ko alam. wishful thinking nalang talaga. then in the mid afternoon, i ended up watching a movie with my friend. we were supposed to go to greenbelt pero hindi natuloy. ayus na rin siguro yun.
nung monday naman, may lunch thing dito sa bahay tsaka may "block party". i'd rather not elaborate but even if not everyone showed up, ayus lang naman. haha
so yesterday was the big day. course card distribution aka moment of truth/suffering. we were in school the whole day waiting for the professors to give us the good or bad news for that matter. at first i was psyched but i got tired easily because of the lack of sleep and a friggin headache. panalo. we were supposed to eat dinner together/night out but hindi siya natuloy. now, i don't have anything against sa mga di nakapunta. you all have your reasonsone way or another. its alright. its just it gets really frustrating when you put so much effort into trying to plan something then in the end either no one replies or they back out at the last minute. i guess i just got so exhausted. parang deja vu nanaman eh. marami nang pagkakataon na nangyari ito.. i'm not blaming anyone but myself. let's just say that i expect too much. parang initiative lang naman. prang nakikita ko na tuloy yung get together sa feb... umm baka marami lang din hindi makapunta or something.. i'm already babbling here. don't mind the last 2 sentences. so anyway, moving on, malapit na ang pasko and i still can't feel it. haha
i know i should be out celebrating. i'm happy or something similar to that. but why do i have this sinking feeling that i just want to burst or breakdown and cry?
Kitty KatKat posted @ 10:46 PM
