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This is where paradox, allegories, dreams, rock music, cat naps, and other tangential things unite.
feel free to take a look around...
= Who Am I? =
i am a living paradox... an irony in disguise. a contradiction who hides behind a permanent mask..destiny is there so that we can change it by the choices that we make and the chances we take. we live to alter our so-called fate by trying to untie the knots that life has created. i am trying to make sense of my so-called existence in this dreary world and doing my best to live with humanity. my life is a vicious cycle as much as i'd hate to admit it. that is why i try to defy reality to change some things about life. i am a cynic, a dreamer, a realist and a pessimist all in one. how do i deal with it? i myself do not know the answer. i am contemplating now more than ever. thinking of what is to become of me. and what the future holds..
interests: music---> mostly rock but i can go from classical to metal.. from punk to emo... from techno/electronica/trance to indie rock..from j-rock/pop to latino music.. also some selective maintstream. NO NOVELTY SONGS PLEASE. ~my two favorite genres are rock and classical~ reading, contemplating, writing.... annoying the hell out of people by teasing them ... conversing with people .... taking long walks alone and observing people, having misadventures, playing the piano(i used to)....
AND sleeping more than 10 hours a day (i'm still a kitty you know) :P
we didn't have classes yesterday. though i wouldn't say that its totally a good thing. you see, i woke up extremely early~ or maybe i attempted to~ just to study for our genpsyc exam. the thing is, you may have seen me reading some hand-outs and that was it. i read it but i didn't understand/remember all those terms. then my mom sort of barged in to our room(i sleep in my sister's room) and told me that there were no classes. i was surprised and i couldn't believe it. so i texted some people and tried to confirm the news. i was still skeptical at that time because what if we did have class and i was the only one who didn't attend because of misinformation? thankfully eggy went to school really early because her class was at 7am and she confirmed that there were no classes. so its a good thing right? NO.. i mean yeah i get to bum around just like the old days but my interview was scheduled on that day which is supposedly also the last day of interveiwing the shiftees. now i have to move it again next week... i just hope that it'll push through. but i just hve this strange feeling that i'm not going to make it... :( oh well. i'll know in a few more days.
the long weekend is supposed to give me a headstart for all the requirements and advanced "studying". sadly, it has not. i spent the the whole day watching some dvds. i watched pride and prejudice which made me swoon because of mr. darcy. i mean who wouldn't if he utters the line "you have bewitched me body and soul" with a longing look on his eyes. cmon. then i also watched cheaper by the dozen 2 which was quite enteraining for a very hot afternoon.
also i just realized that for the 22 years of my sister's life, it was her first tiime to take a bite of a shawarma also that afternoon. talk about firsts!!! i was so surprised when she told me that. it was fun watching her eat that for the first time. she mentioned that she did ate kebab, or whatever that is. then i told her that it wasn't the same.
we didn't have c2 today. i actually miss my tutees. yes, those two "makulit and maharot" little kids. next week, i'll prepare a lesson plan for them to make up for those missed lessoons. i already have the flash cards prepared and some "reading materials" to help them. the thing is, i have to attend the make-up classes for my 2 absences. its really no big deal. what bothers me a bit is the fact that i might have to commute from kamarin back to dlsu. and we all know that i have a poor sense of direction. er.. now i have to figure out how not to get lost. hmm maybe this might turn out to be an adventure for me. i guess this serves me right for being absent. :P
then i was bummed out when i browsed the newspaper and found out that there were no good movies to watch. darnit. goal wasn't showing anymore. just my luck. so.. i was forced to watch close to you. yeah its the movie that stars john lloyd cruz, bea alonzo and sam milby. i still have the lss from the soundtrack of the movie. oh cmon don't tell me you haven't heard it yet? it goes "oh why don't you smile....." hahaha i just can't seem to get that farden song out of my head! haha but it was an alright movie. it wasn't spectacular but it didn't suck either. and i am actually recommending it for you to watch! hahahaha
and i noticed that my acedemic performance is really declining. i have to study more. i envy joan, jill, ann and the others who were really exerting effort and getting good grades for the 1st half of the term. i don't know what's happening to me. cramming really is in my system but for the past term, i handled it pretty well. now i just have to find that drive back. i have to study harder to get atleast decent grades for this term. that and the fact that it would boost my CGPA and it might make it look good on my trascript of records when i transfer to another school. that is if i pass.. but it still might change if i pass the shifting process. haha i know that i still have half of the term to set my life into having a direction.
i just realized something... even if now that i'm 18 i can't feel that i have changed. i mean, yes, i already am legal but that's that. i am still the immature, self-centered, cynical, malabo, weird type of person that i was. and it bugs me that i still haven't matured into a responsible person. i haven't even bloomed into a so-called lady yet. lolz. hahahaha the bottom line? some people change while some cannot. what's the point? i don't know either. :D
Kitty KatKat posted @ 6:54 PM
